Your Voice

I speak up for those who do not speak.

My voice sounds for those who have been forced into silence.

But more importantly, I speak out for those who are no longer with us.

As a survivor of sexual assault, rape, and false imprisonment, I have experienced a system designed to fail us. A system where we are so terrified because we are taught to respect fear more than ourselves. A system we have been taught that silence would save us, but it won’t.

YOUR VOICE matters.

Please hear my voice

As a General Manager of a car dealership for 7 years, I never in my life thought I would experience the level of evil I faced in June of 2023. A man I hired and trusted committed extremely violent crimes against me where I was raped, attacked, sexually assaulted, held against my will, and he attempted to take my life. By the grace of God and my employees, I was ripped from his hold on me, and I was able to get to safety.

Unfortunately, after terminating him, I started receiving death threats from his family through extortion if I did not send them a certain amount of money and I was in fear for my family’s safety where I had to make the hardest decision of my life to resign from my career. Once the Governor’s warrant and arrest took place and he bonded out on a $500,000 bond, I have been retaliated against physically, through social media, phone calls, and text messages where I had to deactivate all accounts and move several times because his father was tracking my location due to his connections with the police department as he is a terminated police officer. His mother works for child protective services, and she tried using abuse of power to file false allegations against me.

I have documented and reported over twelve different incidents of him violating his no-contact orders since his release while the prosecution has done nothing other than lose video evidence and witness statements while telling me that I was emotional and would forget some of the events over time as the trial is exactly one year from when the attacks took place. That is far from the truth as I am suffering a life sentence trying to heal from PTSD and the nightmares that haunt me while running for my life along with the physical injuries I am still healing from.

Where is the help for our survivors?

My life has been changed forever as I am now in weekly therapy sessions through the Cohen Clinic at Hope for the Warriors which is an amazing veteran organization that helps veterans and their families. I am adjusting to an entire new life taking medications for anxiety and PTSD. I am dealing with physical injuries having surgery on my left foot due to a post-traumatic injury where they have to do a bone infusion. If I can say anything for my voice to be heard it is this-

I will not let this monster’s actions define me. I will allow the beauty of these trauma scars to heal me and transform me into exactly what God’s mission and purpose are for me. My voice will be heard for every survivor. My voice will be heard for me. But, more importantly, I will be a beacon of light to bring other survivors to their voices and safety.

Since my resignation, I have started law school to obtain my degree and become an attorney to fight for survivors. I want to thank my advocate, Heather, my therapists Sarah and Aiereal, as well as Andrea my amazing sponsor for guiding me through this battle. Thank you for always pushing me to keep fighting.

I will stand up for what is right while being a guiding light to other survivors to know they are never alone.

With this amazing group of survivors and veterans who have banded together in strength and unity, I have faced my fears and stood my ground with the strongest Army behind me. What started to be three survivors sharing stories has now expanded to this amazing community of fighters.

“Two are better than one because they have a good return for their labor:
If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls
  and has no one to help them up.” Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

Because of you, I have been able to develop an inner strength I didn’t know existed with the love and support from this family as we lift each other every day in prayer and our walk by faith to do what God has called us to do to serve His purpose for each other and for you.

“If you can see it here and you have the courage enough to speak it, it will happen. If you truly believe in it and if you become vocal with it, you are creating that law of attraction and it will become your reality”- Conor McGregor

Sometimes, people try to destroy you precisely because they recognize your power-

Not because they don’t see it, but because they don’t want it to exist.

I’m not a victim.

I’m a Survivor who won’t be silenced.

We Ride At Dawn!

To Love and Be Loved in Return

Written by: Jeanie

I am here today to let you know that love should NEVER hurt. I am a Survivor, and that word has never meant so much to me. I never thought I would be sitting here today with anything associated with my name besides mother, wife, daughter, sister, nurse and friend. Life changes, and I had sadly added domestic abuse victim, and addict to my name. Today I have proudly changed that to Survivor and Recovering addict, and Sobriety Coach behind that same name.

My life was what I thought was perfect, until Watching the only man I loved assault our youngest child became the worst possible scenario I could’ve ever imagined. When I got sober and clear minded and I was able to stand up for myself and my children. My life sober it quickly became clear, I was hard to control when I was healthy, I was hard to manipulate when I was clear minded, and I was hard to influence when I had discernment. This began my relationship with divorce, narcissistic abuse, trauma bonds, emotional, mental, abuse. My sobriety ended my 24 year marriage with the only man in my life that I had ever loved.

Then began MY story of Domestic abuse. I will spare the details but as a survivor of physical, mental, emotional and sexual domestic abuse, I put my faith into a very flawed system that I believed would be fair and protect me from my abuser. Yet what I found was it was a very flawed system that protected their own, meant to silence the very people it was meant to protect. Living in a system where my truth was not heard, was not felt or taken seriously. When my “stories” were found out to be true, my life became harassment, no protection and continued mistreatment from the same people sworn to protect and serve, I became disheartened. I felt as though no one was listening, no one was truly hearing what I was telling them. I felt alone, scared and on my own.

After all the hurts, bruises, pain, physical, mental, emotional, financial abuse I can look in the mirror and while I’m still a work in progress, I can say I survived, I got out and I am stronger for it. I have made broken look beautiful, and strong look invincible, I have walked with the universe on my shoulders, I got out, and I survived.

I am still learning to trust myself and others again, but I will never lose hope that there are good people, genuine friends, supportive family, amazingly gentle and kind people in this world.

To my boys, you are my life, my breath and my literal reason for living. You have given me hope and literally saved my life, even when you didn’t know it. On days that I have wanted to quit and give in, I look at you and you give me continued hope. I hope you know your lives give me everything that brings me happiness and joy. You are the air that I breathe, my peace, my safe space and my refuge. I will protect you at all costs.

We are here to help you, pray for you and support you any way that we can. You are seen, you are heard, you are loved here. We are stronger together, and together we do recover. This is a safe and supportive space for you.

I am so proud to support my beautiful soul sister, and fellow survivor Breanah and amazing friend Ray with America First Project.

I am not a victim.

I am a Survivor who will not be silenced.